Swan eats Dinosaurs

drifted apart

2009-09-04T00:03:00.002+08:00

Just because you can't see the wound doesnt mean it's not hurting. It scars all the time, but it heals. So till the time it heals, which is god knows when, i'm fucking hurting inside with every moment passing by.
I don't wanna be here, i wanna live in my happy dreams. Where i'd like to be, is few months back.

These dreams are haunting me like nightmares, it freaks me out cause i wake up smiling instead of screaming. Just why do i deserve all this hurt?

A little

2009-08-20T20:05:00.001+08:00

whenever i'm sad, i smell the fragrance of the flowers
i miss you, i touch your scent
walking the distance, fleeting in the wind
i feel as though i could touch your breath

you know, you don't know my heart
i miss you. i write a letter again
plucking a petal of my shy heart
i send it to you

i smile. when it's hard, i smile.
even though i'm alone, i'm happy
though i have to watch you from far away, far away
and you don't walk towards me one step

do you know at least a little? could you look at me just a little?
you flow in my heart quietly like a dream
suddenly, i want to cautiously show you a little of my loving heart

at the sound of your cheerful song
my seemingly shy heart starts to thud
lest should you see me like this
i hide again gently

i smile. even though i'm lonely, i smile
i've done okay so far by myself
though i look at your back figure without a word, without a word
though i want to hold your soft hands

do you know at least a little? could you look at me just a little?
you make memories in my heart like a star
just a little, i want to lean on your warm shoulders and fall asleep

this is probably destiny. it's probably love.
could you know, this heart of mine?

do you know at least a little? could you look at me just a little?
you flow in my heart quietly like a dream
suddenly, i want to cautiously show you a little of my loving heart

just a little, i miss you

just a little,but a little too much.

The heart seemed to do it somehow

2009-08-19T04:35:00.001+08:00

even though i tell it not to go,
even though i tell it to stop
my heart keeps going towards you
it doesn't wear out, it doesn't decrease
why is my love like this

one by one, i count and count the memories
my heart can't rest for even a moment
it'll just become baggage that becomes hard to control
why can't i even throw them away

really, my heart must have done something somehow
i must have become a fool that's blind from love
just one place, everyday one place
looking at the sad light that is you
even the tear glands must be broken
my tears won't stop
i love only you, only you
can't you just tell me?

even if i hold out my hands,
no matter how much i call out
you're always far from me
it'll be a love that becomes painful scars
why can't i erase it

i try to comfort myself with the lie
that i'm happy if you just smile
because the place you're going towards is not me,
the lonely tears flow

really, my heart must have done something somehow
i must have gone crazy over this hard love
can't have you, can't forget you
waiting for you day by day

i must have gotten ill from missing you so much,
from loving you too much
just one thing.. your heart, that one thing
can't you just share it with me

can't you love me
no you cant no you cant

Because im stupid

2009-08-15T22:55:00.000+08:00

Because i'm so foolish, i know only you
you who are looking at someone else,
you probably don't know my heart

there is no me in your day,
probably not even in your memories
but i'm looking at only you as my tears continue to fall

i'm happy with looking at your back figure
though you still don't know my heart
though at the end, you'll just brush past me

the days that i miss you so much
the days when it's too hard to bear
the words "i love you" are dancing on my lips
once again, alone, crying for you
once again, alone, missing for you
baby, i love you. i'm waiting for you

there is no me in your day,
probably not even in your memories
but i'm looking at only you,
making memories by myself

to me, love is like a beautiful wound
even though i see your pretty smile,
i can't smile with you

the days that i miss you so much
the days when it's too hard to bear
the words "i miss you" are dancing on my lips
once again, alone, crying for you
once again, alone, missing for you
baby, i love you. i'm waiting for you

bye bye, never say goodbye
though i can't hold onto you
i need you, i can't say anything else
i want you, i'll wish and wish again

the days that i miss you so much
the days when it's too hard to bear
the words "i love you" are dancing on my lips
once again, alone, crying for you

the days when you fill up my thoughts
the days when my heart grows cold and i'm sad
the words "i miss you" are dancing on my lips
once again, alone, crying for you
once again, alone, missing for you

Another day down

2009-07-21T23:52:00.002+08:00

You speak in circles and it makes me wonder hard,
about the things that i cant make out its meanings.

People often die for things they cant have
For me,its you

2009-07-19T18:26:00.002+08:00

!@#$%^&*()(%#@dgte$@q$&

swan you bloody loser

isnt there something that can save me?

Nobody likes me;they hate me

2009-07-15T14:34:00.003+08:00

I never thought that I'd fall in love,
But it grew from a simple crush.
Being without you girl, I was all messed up,
When you walked out, said that you'd had enough.
Been a fool, girl I know
Didn't expect this is how things would go.
Maybe in time, you'll change your mind
Now looking back i wish i could rewind
Because i can't sleep til you're next to me,
No i can't live without you no more.
Oh i stay up til you're next to me,
Til this house feels like it did before.
Feels like insomnia ah ah,
Feels like insomnia ah ah.

Just that day i dreamt you came back to pick me up,
to mend my broken heart and held me tight.
The worst part wasnt the dream,the waking up part was.
there's no turning back

raindrops falling on my head

2009-07-07T22:20:00.002+08:00

There aint no sunshine when you're gone
And all i want to do is to close my eyes,go to sleep.
Cause i see you in my dreams I held your hands in my dreams You held on to me in my dreams We were happy in my dreams At least i wasnt hurting that badly in my dreams The dreams were so real but then i heard chirppings and everything was gone I saw my room ceiling and realised it was a dream Oh what a dream The end

dream on you bloody loser

2009-07-07T00:50:00.003+08:00

What am I supposed to do
when the best part of me was always you,
And what am I supposed to say
when I'm all choked up that you're ok.
I'm falling to pieces, yeah, I'm falling to pieces
They say bad things happen for a reason
But no wise words gonna stop the bleeding
Cos she's moved on while I'm still grieving
And when a heart breaks no it don't breakeven even... no

Sometimes i miss us so much that i cry in my sleep

.

2009-06-29T13:33:00.002+08:00

最怕空气突然安静,
最怕朋友突然的关心,
最怕回忆突然翻滚绞痛着不平息,
最怕突然听到你的消息.
想念如果会有声音, 不愿那是悲伤的哭泣
事到如今终於让自已属於我自已,
只剩眼泪还骗不过自己
突然好想你, 你会在哪里, 过的快乐或委屈
突然好想你, 突然锋利的回忆, 突然模糊的眼睛
我们像一首最美丽的歌曲 ,变成两部悲伤的电影
为什麽你带我走过最难忘的旅行, 然後留下最痛的纪念品
我们那麽甜那麽美那麽相信, 那麽疯那麽热烈的曾经.

WISHlist

2009-05-20T14:52:00.002+08:00

MY BIRTHDAY IS THIS FRIDAYYYY!!!
Well,actually there's nothing to be excited about cause no money equals no celebration but i'm just trying to make myself excited.
Birthday what,once a year only leh.
Need a few things like phone and figured i need a mp3.
Clothes,pants,this and that.
But the one and only thing i really want,
baby i want to be loved by you.

How come

2009-05-16T00:34:00.002+08:00

Aiya fuck you swan,you're just a loser.
No,fuck you brains.
I wish you'd stop funtioning this moment.
ARGH!

go ahead and cry

2009-05-15T23:43:00.000+08:00

All i need is you by my side

Fucked up

2009-05-13T01:15:00.000+08:00

Got a job which is worth being happy about,
but a fucked up ass has to ruin it.
~~Father~~
What have you done to provide me FAMILY?
What have you done to show me LOVE?
What have you done to show me CARE?
I'm as utterly disappointed in you as you are in me.
If i had a choice,but too bad i dont have one.
So i'll have to continue looking at your fucked up face,
just like how you have to bear with mine.
And i'm glad i look like mum,
cause i wont be able to stand looking in the mirror and feel sorry for myself.
Just because i'm living in your fucked up house,
doesnt mean you can shout at me as and when you like.
You're just pure fucked up.

I'm sorry you had to hear unpleasant things like that.
And all i need is your comforting arms to hold me,
when i fall at times like this.

Randommmm

2009-04-29T01:53:00.006+08:00

Guess who is this?

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Ta dah! She grew up to become my PRETTY lover girl. (:

Ok that was really random.
Its like that when you have insomnia.

Oh you're so perfect in my eyes

What to do?

2009-04-20T00:28:00.002+08:00

No more school means working life.
Been thinking about what i want to do,
but just cant find a definate answer.
Dad's been saying i never go find job,
never think of what i want to do.
Now so broke and penniless,
the feeling just sucks big time.
Cant celebrate Baby's birthday,
now sick also dont have the money to see doc.
Dont want ask from dad,
cause allowance he also dont wanna give alrdy.
Mummy's money is just enough for herself,
and i dont wanna keep taking her money too.
Why am i such a let down?
Why is money so important?
Why cant i do something well?
Things are getting so hard for me :(

Who knows about the tears that falls down.

Never enough

2009-04-14T16:51:00.003+08:00

Just a perfect day
Drink sangria in the park
And then later, when it gets dark, we'll go home
Just a perfect day
Feed animals in the zoo
Then later a movie too, and then home
Oh it's such a perfect day, I'm glad I spent it with you.
You make my day, such a perfect day.

7 days a week, 24 hrs a day is too short for us

Chaos over the world

2009-04-10T23:59:00.000+08:00

Back from bintan!
Its was great escape from hectic life in spore.
All we did there was breakfast,beach,lunch,tv,dinner,tv,zzz.
Managed to go out of town and got really cheap caps.
Its was really an eye opener as we saw the lives of the ppl there.
Photos will be up soon!
:)

Every night we hug to sleep,
wishing dawn wont be breaking so soon.

Getaway

2009-04-05T12:24:00.003+08:00

Off to bintan tmr morning! OMG I CAN'T WAIT!!!

The trip made us really poor so we gotta make the best of it.
I havent even pack my bag yet!

And a storm is brewing,thunder and lightning non-stop.

Hope those stupid idiot maids arent irritating the shit out of my baby.

This post is all about random things.

Oh dad is making me go CAMBODIA to teach in a school?!?!

Yah what the fuck! C-a-m-b-o-d-i-a.

Shall cast everything aside for 4d3n and just enjoy.

When you get older,there's more things to think about.

When you're in love,it shows.

Second,2nd,Di Er

2009-03-26T21:28:00.003+08:00

The picture says it all :)
We still have manymany more to go.

We should be laughing and having fun,
the tiffs are just a waste of our precious time.
So baby,lets smile and not frown
You mean so much to me(:

Together

2009-03-17T19:47:00.002+08:00

Time is well spent as long as i spend it with b.
But since esther left camelot,our jobs have lessened.
So our precious paper is going low.
Coming up is Esther + Cake's birthday and Bintan trip!
Though we're having hard time raising money,
i'm still very excited for the trip!! :)
Baby,we'll pull through this alright.

They may laugh and bet we'll fail
You and I both know so clearly we'll prove them wrong.

sorry i'm poor and you gotta suffer with me
:(

Addiction

2009-03-12T20:39:00.002+08:00

I love when your eyes wash over me,
With a look only I can tell what's on your mind.
I love the way that you find me,
Whenever I've lost my way.
Baby, we've got something started,
Say we'll never stop.
I'll lock up my heart and throw away the key,
If that's what it takes to keep your love with me.
You open the door to all that's good in me.
I can't deny the truth that I could never be without you.

We're gonna live happily ever after
Just you and me :)
Baby,can you see i'm addicted to you?

See my love

2009-03-10T20:26:00.002+08:00

Can't believe the feeling that I felt when I saw you.
If I was an artist, onto paper I would draw you.
Hang it on a wall with all the masterpieces,
Cause that's where you belong.
You know I want you,
I really want you.
You don't know how bad I want you,
I really do.
Can't believe the feeling that I felt when I met you.
If I was the pilot of a jet then I would let you,
Fly us all the way up far into the stars,
Cause that's where you belong.

Aside with the tiffs and bring in the love
L-O-V-E education.
Baby take my hand and laugh with me :)

Devil's call

2009-03-05T18:50:00.002+08:00

Swan Goh has split personality and anger management problem.
And needs to see a shrink before she kills somebody.
I'm amazed at the level of hatred i've for XXX,
cause its like XXX has nth to do with me at all,
But I just hate him over the max.
No reason,no rhyme
Even his death WILL NOT applease my bloody hatred!
Not to say even he gets rolled over by the bull dozer,
or churned up by the damn cement mixer.
The devil is thirsty for your death lil boy,so beware.

And baby,I'm thankful to have found you :)

Hear me

2009-02-26T20:07:00.001+08:00

To see you when I wake up is a gift, I didn't think could be real.
To know that you feel the same as I do, is a three-fold, utopian dream.
You do something to me that I can't explain.
So would I be out of line if I said, I miss you.
I see your picture, I smell your skin on the empty pillow next to mine.
You have only been gone 2 days, but already I'm wasting away.
I know I'll see you soon,
But I need you to know that I miss you.

Absence from whom we love is worse than death,
and frustrates hope severer than despair.

Khit Theung Khoon

2009-02-25T21:30:00.003+08:00

Apprently B's so busy that she only called once,
FOR THE WHOLE DAY!
Ok,im overreacting la.
There's no time for calls or sms during a camp!
But i cant stop thinking of that smelly tofu of mine :(
I hope friday quickly come otherwise i'll go bonkers.

Its so hard to be without you
Khit-Theung-Khoon=I-miss-you

First monthsary

2009-02-24T23:59:00.002+08:00

HAPPY 1ST MONTH BABY!

The happy thing is its our 1st monthsary,
but the sad thing is B just went into camp for briefing
and i wont be seeing her till friday! OMG what the hell.
We were supposed to have dinner,
but ended up rushing back and forth to pack her bag :(
So thats how our plans were ruined by the stupid camp.
Ugh.

ButButBut
I know she loves the present i gave her! :)
-grins

S-w-e-e-t

2009-02-22T12:28:00.008+08:00

You were my strength when I was weak,

You were my voice when I couldn't speak,

You were my eyes when I couldn't see,

You saw the best there was in me.

Lifted me up when I couldn't reach,

You gave me faith 'coz you believed.

I'm everything I am,

Because you loved me.

Let the pictures speak ;

Your smile makes me melt

Another 2 more days :)

Sugar rush

2009-02-12T16:51:00.001+08:00

You've got magic inside your finger tips,
Its leaking out all over my skin.
Every time that I get close to you,
You're making me weak with the way you look through those eyes.
I remember the way that you move,
You're dancing easily through my dreams.
Its hitting me harder and harder with all your smiles,
You are crazy gentle in the way you kiss.

This love is pure sweet
Its just you and the things that you do :)
2 more days

Hungry man = angry man

2009-02-05T15:49:00.002+08:00

Dont judge the food by its looks,its the taste that counts.

oh love
:)

Love conquers everything

2009-02-01T14:15:00.002+08:00

When I try to describe how I feel when you hold me,
I get butterflies lullabies, it's hard to explain.
Like the scent of a rose or the sound of the rain,
It's too precious and too wonderful to give it a name.
Must be a million times I've tried to express this love of mine
When it goes this deep, when it tastes this sweet,
It's not easy to define.

Because I love you,
I'll love you no matter what happened in the past.
The past is gone,its the present now.
So dont cry my dear,
I dont wanna see you shed another silly tear.

3.47am love

2009-01-25T19:53:00.002+08:00

We gonna hold hands and take a walk on this ginseng rd.
On the way we'll pick up lots of red dates,
and I'll make some sweet dessert out of it.
As sweet as our love.

"We'll be in love
For as long as we live"

The first time ever I saw your face,
I thought the sun rose in your eyes
And the moon and the stars were the gifts you gave,
To the night and the empty skies my love.
The first time ever I kissed your mouth,
I felt the earth turn in my hand.
Like the trembling heart of a captive bird,
That was there at my command my love.
The first time ever I lay with you,
And felt your heart beat close to mine.
I thought our joy would fill the earth,
And would last 'till the end of time my love.

Baby baby baby :)

A trip on the highway

2009-01-22T00:45:00.002+08:00

Bad gastric
However,it got better cause my sweet biscuit bought me med!
Soooooo sweet :)
Thanks babe

You know I want to hold your hands,
You know I want to kiss you,
You dont know how much I want you thats all.
But soon,soon you'll know my dear,
You'll know how much I wanna hold your hands through this journey.

We're going on our first trip,
baby dont you feel my excitement?

Cant stop noticing you

2009-01-18T12:55:00.002+08:00

That girl indeed is a bad girl,
she stole my heart and took off with it.
Run baby run,
but i'm gonna chase you down.
Tonight will be the night i'll fall for you,
cause I was caught by the taste of your kiss.
But if your heart's not in it,
don't break my heart slow.
Cause I can't fight this feeling anymore.

Take me to somewhere we can be together

Triangular love night

2009-01-11T16:27:00.003+08:00

Take a breath I pull myself together,
Just another step until I reach the door.
You'll never know the way it tears me up inside to see you.
I wish that I could tell you something to take it all away.

Sometimes I wish I could save you,
And there's so many things that I want you to know.
I won't give up til it's over if it takes you forever.
I want you to know,
When I hear your voice it's drowning in the whispers.
You're just skin and bones,
There's nothing left to take and no matter what I do,
I can't make you feel better.
If only I could find the answer to help me understand.

Sometimes I wish I could save you,
And there's so many things that I want you to know
I won't give up til it's over.
If it takes you forever I want you to know that,
If you fall, stumble down I'll pick you up off the ground
If you lose faith in you I'll give you strength to pull through
Tell me you won't give up cause I'll be waiting.
If you fall you know I'll be there for you.
If only I could find the answer to take it all away.

Wipe away your tears and turn to me.
Take a look at how broken I am to see you cry.
Girl,take my hand and I'll make you smile.

Someone to spice up my life

2009-01-07T21:03:00.004+08:00

Your beautiful eyes stare right into my eyes,
And sometimes i think of you late at night.
I dont know why, I wanna be somewhere where you are.
I wanna be right where you are.
You're here,
Eyes are looking into mine,so baby make me fly.

We just need some time to walk a lil closer.
Take it nice and slow
You got me so mesmerized girl,
I'm losing my head and all my directions.
Oh don't you turn me down so soon.

Sunshine of my life & apple of my eye :)

Backward/Forward

2009-01-02T18:17:00.004+08:00

Sometimes I find myself sittin' back and reminiscing
Especially when I have to watch other people kissin'
And I remember when you started callin' me your miss's
All the play fightin', all the flirtatious disses.

I tell myself I dont love you anymore,
just jealous we're not in love anymore.
Thats all,yeah thats all.

Life's too short to be sad so laugh it off
oh just what to do to close our distance.

Resurfacing

2008-12-29T23:17:00.003+08:00

My life has been such a whirlwind since I saw you.
I been running around in circles in my mind
And it always seems that I'm following you, girl
Cause you take me to the places that alone I'd never find.

Waiting for my passenger in my car.
I only know your name :(

Miles away

2008-12-19T00:30:00.003+08:00

I miss her :(

How can this be happening to me?
I hardly know her and we're so far apart.

Conclusion=i'm just bored and lonely.
Yes,i refuse to believe my heart cause its ridiculous.

And i dont believe i still love you.

How could this happen

2008-12-17T00:07:00.001+08:00

Is the mind playing a trick or i'm just bored?
We need some love to keep us going.
The distance between us is so wide,
I've no idea how should I pull us closer.
Cause girl you see,I can't keep my eyes off you.
And you feel so far away.

I'm hanging in the middle of nowhere,
dont know where to go,what to do.
Waiting for a love to come pick me up.
Oh,will you?

Flower heart big carrot

H-O-L-I-D-A-Y-S

2008-12-11T01:34:00.002+08:00

Look on the bright side emo kid,
its HOLIDAYS already!!!
ClapsClapsClaps
Actually its end of this week to be exact,
but i've alr self-declared so no diff!
I cant wait to get my ass to work and earn $$$.
and to find my pearly pearl.
Party the night away and drink till you drop!!
Rotten life here i come~

I keep myself busy so I dont think abt you so much.
Darn,why is it getting so hard?
Plunge into depression,oh just go ahead.

Coming to a halt

2008-12-08T19:07:00.002+08:00

It seems you dont need me
The calls and texts lessen.
Everything seems to bore down
Well,there's no love between us to start with.
Take a bow,show's over.

I NEED MY PEARL!

Casper the friendly ghost is trying to get near to her.
She's crazy over her Eye-candy,
and mad cause Eye-candy pushing her to someone else.
Complicated-

Girlfriend girlfriend where are you?
Seeking fervently for thy love

Step back

2008-12-05T23:44:00.002+08:00

Was I not enough stimulation
Hit by a brake the other day
Just when I thought that I'm okay
You didn't like my conversation
I can't come up with something new
It doesn't really matter what I do
So here's my observation
You could never see it through my eyes
And I'm too tired to try.

Is this feeling real or just an act?
Find me an entertainment!!!
I need to stop feel this way,
I have to find a way to stop feeling down.

Guess I'm lonely and I'm tired.

Gone haywire

2008-11-30T22:46:00.002+08:00

Sometimes I try to hide,
What I feel inside.
And I turn around,
You're with him now.
I just can't figure it out,
Tell me why you're so hard to forget.
Don't remind me, I'm not over it.
Tell me why I can't seem to face the truth,
I'm just a little too not over you.

I've seen what Love does.
It makes me expect and leads me to disappointment.
Darn this Love.

Cause Love is not meant to be shared.

Delusions

2008-11-25T21:08:00.002+08:00

Great disappointment filled me in.
I thought I was able to see you longer than that,
but it turned out the other way round.
There is so much I want to rant,
but it doesnt matter cause it wont change a thing.
Nothing about me matters.
You see,I cant convince myself you feel for me.
Because you dont make me feel that way.
Because soemtimes I'm disappointed too much.
Because you're mine NOT.

Its the things I'd do for you,but not the other way round.

To love or be loved?

2008-11-22T22:21:00.003+08:00

I risk my everything and put my fragile heart at stake.
Blinded by the love thats set to pierce me through,
I only see the lovely side of you.
Should have known not to set my foot in,
Should have kept my cool but its too late to retreat.
If your heart's not in it

This is not love my girl,
You just enjoy my company and attention.

Love makes you obsessive

2008-11-18T20:21:00.003+08:00

I'm obsessive when just one thought of you comes up,
And I'm aggressive, with just one thought up close enough.
You got me stressing, incessantly pressing the issue
'Cause every moment gone you know I miss you .
I'm the question and you're of course the answer.

Popped by hospital for my MissEmo ytd.
I've nv seen her so lifeless before and it pains to see it :(
Hope she'll feeling better already
GET WELL SOON EMO,i miss your emo shit in class.

It's wearing me out, its tearing me apart
But it makes me coming back for more

What lies ahead

2008-11-12T12:51:00.002+08:00

ITESC over but there's still a league going on.
What is it gonna be like after league?
Few more months and we're graduating,
what lies ahead of this winding road?

Everyone saying this but i believe that.
Because this is too unbelievable,
although i wished this was true but that is more real.
Why bring myself high up and let you drop me down.
It's wearing me out

Felt a rush

2008-10-27T17:59:00.004+08:00

Jealousy typically refers to the negative or angry thoughts, feelings, and behaviors of insecurity, fear, and anxiety that occur when a person believes a valued relationship is being threatened by a rival, or when another person is perceived to have some type of advantage.
Jealousy often contains a mixture of emotions such as anger, sadness, disgust, which are focused by passion or anger.
While jealousy and envy are similar, they differ in that jealousy concerns something one has and is afraid of losing, while envy concerns something one does not have and either he wants to acquire, or prevent another person from getting.

Unspoken tensed atmosphere formed between us,
and I feel a war is about to break out.
Some things just can't be shared
"jealousy is always born with love;it does not always die with it"

Nowhere to go

2008-10-25T19:12:00.002+08:00

Save me i'm falling again,
Keep me from breaking into million pieces.
In the end no matter what I do,
There's nowhere, nowhere to go
Nowhere to go but you.

There is nothing I can do

Love is just a word

2008-10-24T19:05:00.002+08:00

Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer
Do you know you're unlike any other,
You'll always be my thunder.
I said,
Your eyes are the brightest of all the colours.
I don't wanna ever love another,
You'll always be my thunder.

Nowhere to go,with my sprained ankle.
Quickly recover!
I wanna RUN RUN RUN

I need your loving hands to pick me up

2008-10-19T21:34:00.003+08:00

Everytime the road gets hard to travel,
i close my eyes and imagine you whispering
"dont be a brat and be strong"

I'm on a ship thats caught in a storm right now.
Truth is,i thought i was strong but actually im much weaker than this.

God is not here today,priest

2008-10-18T23:17:00.003+08:00

But the devil is in.
Have mercy on my soul,for i've walked a sinful road
For i'm down on my knee,have mercy on me please.

Its good to have dreams,but dont get attached to them.

always surprise me and make my day

Tonight i'm falling & I can't get up

2008-10-16T15:39:00.003+08:00

Your kiss, your smile, your mind
You're sunlight in my eyes.
I miss your breath on my neck, when we whisper in the night.
Didn't wanna want to hold you,
Didn't wanna need you so bad,
Didn't wanna wake up,
And find that I was falling so fast.
Didn't wanna need you,
Didn't wanna need anyone,
Now look what you've done.
Now I can't go on without you.
I'm naked, I cant fake it.
I'm not that strong without you
Never thought I could love you the way I do.
Your touch, your skin, can't believe the way you let me in.
Don't rush tonight, I need you like the ocean needs the tide.
I always thought I would stand on my own,
Climb a mountain top all alone,
Relying, depending on no one,
Now look at what you've done.
Now I can't go on without you.
I'm naked, I cant fake it.
I'm not that strong without you,
Never thought I could love you the way I do.
Never thought I could love you
Never thought I could need you
Never thought I could want you
The way I do.

Revived

2008-10-11T13:34:00.002+08:00

Can decieve everyone else but not myself.

A regretful lie

Emotions popping

2008-09-03T18:39:00.003+08:00

Its 4am and i'm waking up to your perfume,
tonight will be the night that i'll fall for you
'cause i was caught by the taste of your kiss,
but please don't fake what you dont feel
'cause my paper heart will bleed.

Don't say another word about me,
'cause it'll be soon that i'll fall in love with you.
the ice cream lover with a radiant smile

Right where you left

2008-09-02T18:52:00.003+08:00

No, I can't let you go,
You're a part of me now.
Caught by the taste of your kiss
And I don't wanna know the reason why I,
Can't stay forever like this.
Now I'm climbing the walls 'cause I miss you.

I long for those warm hugs from you in this cold lonely night
When the rain doesn't stop falling,its as if im crying

I pack my bag and wait at the door,
one day we'll run away together.

Happy Teacher's Day

2008-09-02T00:28:00.011+08:00

It's like you're a drug,
It's like you're a demon I can't face down.
It's like I'm stuck,
It's like I'm running from you all the time.
And I know I let you have all the power
It's like the only company I seek is misery all around
It's like you're a leech,Sucking the life from me.
It's like I can't breathe,Without you inside of me.
And I know I let you have all the power,
And I realize I'm never gonna quit you over time.

Spent the whole day in Cine with Miss Tay and J-Buddy!
Movie,dinner,movie,supper,home.
All the recki trips and killing of brain cells were worth it :)
The things that I go through for today,everything was worth it,
when I see that smile of yours,the one I haven't seen for ages.
Hope you really did enjoy yourself today
The scenes in the bus were so familiar,
except that now we're miles apart.
Things you'd rather I ask you than hear from others,
Sorry I don't know where to start.

Success of the day credits to J-Buddy as well!
Thanks JENNA GOH LI HUAN :)
For cracking your brains as well and acc me today
Without you today won't be running so smoothly,
so I shall repay your kindness on Sat!!!!
Pictures coming up

Sitting waiting wishing

Retard J-Buddy!

We all love chicken little

I can't smile without you

I can do this all day long

S&J-Buddy Love :)

When you sang "Walking In The Rain"
When you said "You're not a failure"
I wish you'll think back today and smile

Walking In The Rain

2008-08-31T23:54:00.004+08:00

Sitting by the window singing songs of love.
Wishing you were here because the memory's not enough.
Wear my mask in silence, Pretending i'm alright.
If you could see then you would be here standing by my side.
It may be hard to believe,
But girl you're the only one i need.
It may be hard along the way,
It's this feeling i get, When blue skies turn to grey.
Feels like i'm walking in the rain,
I find myself trying to wash away the pain.
Cause i need you to give me some shelter,
Cause i'm fading away.
And baby, i'm walking in the rain.
Every single hour of every single day,
I need to cry, my eyes are dry.
I've cried my tears away
Can't help but remember how you made me feel.
You dressed my soul and made me whole,
You made my life complete.
Of all we've said and done,
Remains the memories of days when life was fun.
But now when you are gone,
I sit alone to watch the setting of the sun.

Cracked my brains for activities for tmr
To celebrate Teacher's Day for you.
Everything is screwed up from ppl backing out,
to the limited things we can do in Singapore.
I'm sorry I can't do anything right at all.
Fucked up,everything's fucked up,im fucked up
WHY AM I SUCH A FAILURE?!!
Can't catch your heart,can't even plan a day for you
No wonder,you don't love me anymore

Digging a hole to bury myself,
failures die thats how they all end up.
I'm disappointed with you guys somehow in a way

30/8/08

2008-08-30T00:43:00.009+08:00

Fool again

Went Play ytd and met her friend and came to know,
2 people in her life now.
Colleague and bla bla
Now everything comes into a clearer picture.
Maybe the feelings for another had grown,
thats why our love drift and you dont love me anymore.
All the possibilities running through my head,
but it doesnt matter anymore.
Since you can move on within 3 weeks with 2 ppl in your life,
what is there of us for me to keep holding on?
When i was crying my eyes out these 3 weeks,
my dear you were out partying and enjoying.
Oh just what a fool i've been
I start to understand the things you said and your actions.
As much as its hurting me right now,
I can only force myself to think of everything that is bad,
force myself to move on thinking abt the ppl you have in your life now.
Sorry Sharon,that i'm not good enough for you.
All the things i've been doing these weeks seem so meaningless now.
So tired physically and mentally
Just why did I fall in love with you,
only to cause myself such hurt and live in this misery.
I dont regret loving you,I only regret not able to make you love me.

"Someone asked me if I can give her the best future,
But no one in this world is perfect.
I know that I'm not,but I'll give her my best.
Thats all it matters"

I'm Wonder-woman cause I cant stop wondering.
My COLLEAGUE Jenna is The Thing,she cant stop thing-king.

All the things you said keep running through my head
Quit fooling,its a heart that you're breaking

27/8/08

2008-08-27T15:04:00.005+08:00

I'm lying alone with my head on the phone,
thinking of you till it hurts.
I dont know if you hurt too but what else can i do,
Im tormented and torn apart.
I wish I could carry your smile and my heart,
for now my life seems so low.
I'm all out of love, Im so lost without you
I know you were right believing for so long
I'm all out of love, what am I without you?
I can't be too late to say that I was wrong.
I want you to come back and carry me home,
away from this long lonely nights.
I'm reaching for you, are you feeling it too?
And what would you say if I called on you now,
And say that I can't hold on.
There's no easy way, it gets harder each day for me.
Please love me or I'll be gone, I'll be gone.

Been to Pahang for the past few days,
just to get away from all the emotions.
But sadly,it doesnt seems to work at all.
The thoughts,imaginations,emotions still haunts me
I pen it all down in the lil diary you gave
As i pen i soak the pages with those persistant tears of mine.
I wish i could chop off my legs so i cant go,
I wish i could blow my head off so i cant think,
I wish i could set things right so i wont be like this,
I wish i could,I just sit wish and wait.
The song that goes "I'll wait and you take your time"

My inside is chanting,
Swan,Learn not to expect cause you're only a friend

24/8/08

2008-08-24T19:35:00.003+08:00

She's always on my mind,
From the time I wake up till I close my eyes.
She's everywhere I go,she's all I know
And though she's far away,
It just keeps getting stronger everyday
And even now she's gone,I'm still holding on
So tell me where do I start?
Cause it's breaking my heart,don't wanna let her go.
Maybe my love will come back someday
Only heaven knows
And maybe our hearts will find a way
Only heaven knows
And all I can do is hope and pray
'cause heaven knows.
My friends keep tellin' me
That if you really love her,you've gotta set her free.
And if she returns in time,I know she's mine
So tell me where do I start?
Cause it's breaking my heart,don't wanna let her go
Why I live in despair
'Cause wide awake or dreaming,I know she's never there
And all this time I act so brave,I'm shaking inside
Why does it hurt me so?

I didnt mean to tire you out girl,
Didnt mean to pin everything on you.
From the start of your work,I wanted to share your burden
All i wanted to do was to share your joy and sadness.
Now even though things have change a big bit,
I'll still be there for you
And i know that there's others out there you'd rather spill to.
But should you decide to pick the phone and dial my number,
i'll be ready and my eyes are on standby 24hrs for you.
There's alot i dont understand but i'll try,i'll learn.
Explain and i'll understand
Let me be there for you

No longer know what you do
I saw my mistake,i saw the cause
and now all im asking is to set things right.
We'll start off as friends

21/8/08

2008-08-21T03:48:00.005+08:00

Tons of things happened during these times.
From having love to losing it
From having friends to shutting myself away from them.
I guess that is how the disaster in my life happened.
Cause of shutting myself away from friends,
it made me revolve myself around love and love only,
putting all i had and wanted in love.
Only to find that i used the wrong side of me to be in love,
and thus the downfall begins...
From not feeling taken care of,to dating a kid,
to not able to give me attention you need,to not giving enough understanding,
till our love drift,till i dont love you anymore.
-Said she

After reading blogs and posts about me do i realize my mistake.
The very one that i made on my birthday that got me this ending.
I've lost love as well as friends/buddies
Im so caught up with handling love that i neglected friends.
The very mistake that i made,
causing me to revolve ard love only got me here today.
What i have left of this game,nothing
You may mock at my foolishness and resent my decisions,
but all i have to say for now is " Im sorry "
Sorry that i walked away
Sorry that you have no more crazyfren
Sorry that you have no bangala
Sorry that you have no more chip
Sorry you have no more madness
Sorry you have no more emo girl,
but im very emo now.
Sorry you have no 4sin outing
Sorry you have no madness gathering
Sorry you have no more sunday lunch
Sorry you have no more kolar bear hugs
Sorry you have no more jia you crazyfren
Sorry you have no more si fei de
Sorry you have no more bananas
Sorry you have no more shua pi qi ah
Sorry you have no more ni shi huai ren
Sorry you have no more this and that you used to have
Sorry i walked out on you guys,
and i have my karma now.
Believe or not yes karma is on me now
i've lost everything including love,
Cause i walked out and pinned everything to love unknowingly
If i had realise it earlier,it wouldnt have been this way.
Sorry for everything everything everything

Sorry to my innocent love:
Im sorry girl that i pinned my everything on you
Sorry that i suffocated you with my childish-ness
Sorry for not taking care of you
Sorry you had to take care of me instead
Sorry for demanding friends attention from you as well
Sorry for not being understanding towards you
Sorry for being such a spoilt brat
Sorry for not meeting your expectations of me
Sorry im not good enough for you
Sorry for being immature
Sorry for revolving myself around you only
Sorry for our love that drifted
Sorry that you dont love me anymore
Sorry its all my fault
Sorry i cant see you as a friend
Sorry i cant help doing things for you
Sorry i cant help thinking abt what we went through
Sorry i cant help thinking abt you
Sorry i cant help wanting to see you
Sorry i cant give you all you need
Sorry i cant forget your smile
Sorry i cant forget your hug
Sorry i cant forget your words to me
Sorry i cant forget places we went
Sorry i cant forget what we ate
Sorry i cant forget things we said
Sorry i cant forget my promises to you
Sorry i cant forget you,my love
Sorry i cant forget 16July the day i tried
Sorry i cant forget how we met
Sorry i cant forget how we started
Sorry i cant forget the late night car chats
Sorry i cant forget the car rides
Sorry i cant forget the way you call me
Sorry i cant forget the way you whine
Sorry i cant forget the way you cry
Sorry i cant forget the way you laugh
Sorry i cant forget the way you bright up my day
Sorry i cant forget your angry fierce face
Sorry i cant forget the things you did for me
Sorry i cant forget the very day you sent me to sch
Sorry i cant forget the very day you cook for me
Sorry i cant forget your delicious ai xin meesua
Sorry i cant forget your likes and dislikes
Sorry i cant forget you love apples
Sorry i cant forget the way you eat and drink
Sorry i cant forget the silly faces you show me
Sorry i cant forget you comforting me on my birthday
Sorry i cant forget the nights we hug to sleep at camp
Sorry i cant forget how you said i look like stitch
Sorry i cant forget how i was falling in love with you each day
Sorry i cant forget how you say you miss me
Sorry i cant forget how you say you love me
Sorry i cant forget how important you are to me
Sorry i cant forget how i called you ling
Sorry i cant stop crying and crying
Sorry to tire you out with stupid issuses
Sorry i cant forget the things abt you and me
I'm sorry that i cant convince you to try again
Ling,im so so sorry for pinning my expectations of frens on you,
stressing you out and let our love die just like that.
Ling,im sorry!
Ling i miss you :(

What do i got to do?

27/5/08

2008-05-27T13:23:00.002+08:00

All i wanna do now is to love you correctly

7/5/08

2008-05-07T00:01:00.002+08:00

Take your sweater and roll

Apprently we're all just not talking,
issues here and there left unsettled accumulated.
I dont care what she says to you or what you said to her.
Cant deny im affected but look, i cant be bothered.
Bunch of bullshit stuff.
As much as i want to speak up for myself,
i cant be bothered cos whats the point?
Reflect on oneself before we comment about others,
you aint any better off than me.
Your heart is not whole to start with,
in the end you'll go back to one all over again.
Dont judge me cause you dont know me
Let it drift apart

CHERISH YEW IS COMING BACK ALRDY!!!
everything aside for my BB
Omg omg omg
i cant wait to kick that kong ba bao's ass :)
Met Chris and Yaya that night.
Supposed to spend the night out but we ended up feeling moody
Dont worry,we'll have a gd time when BB's back yeah?
And also if you ever read this,stay firm on your decision!

You drive me mad and I drive you crazy
But lets not drive each other insane,
or run after each other with a chopper :)
Building trust is like building Great Wall of China

The shrink said i've spilt personality

2/5/08

2008-05-02T13:38:00.002+08:00

Listen to my heart

BB's coming back but she didnt tell me.
Haven seen Chris for a month.
Stopped talking to Jenna.
Every night same things flash through my head.
Bangalas too busy to talk.
No matter how much i do doesnt seem enough.
BB's gonna be too busy when she's back :(
to think of it,there isnt much that'll make me stay.
why do friends come and go?
~~Friends~~

I was asked to see a shrink

24/4/08

2008-04-24T12:30:00.003+08:00

Free fall from 80th storey

Why should i let every one of you know how i'm feeling inside?
Its not like you'd care.
Things seems to be going downhill
cause i dont feel like a human now.
I feel fucking wasted and shitty
why?
cause you see,
friends i have but seems like,
we're friends only when we're together.
Or maybe it's just me.
You shut me out first
Now even my life is a in big mess,
i don't need you though i need you here.

Empty spaces fill me up with disappointment

23/4/08

2008-04-23T10:07:00.002+08:00

Down and out

Take my hand and guide me through love,
cause i seek it yet i know it not.
Love is not love when you stay just to honour promises
You do not love me for you can live without me.
My eyes wide open i stare blankly,tears formed.
I try my best to not let myself go cold,
Realised big brown eyes can hypnotize
Getting lost in el ritmo she whispers te quiero,te quiero
I begin to give in with no hesitation
Can't help my infatuation,my growing infatuation.
Her eyes light up as i melt within
Feels so good it must be a sin
I can't stop what i started,i'm giving in
In the silence her heartbeat is music to me.
Tried to take a picture of love
Didnt think i'd miss her this much.
Tried to write a letter in ink,
Its been getting better i think.
I've got a piece of paper but its empty
Maybe we're trying,trying too hard
Maybe we're torn apart,
Maybe timing is beating our hearts.

Im in love with love itself,not anyone else

22/4/08

2008-04-22T08:50:00.002+08:00

Sit stare and think

i stared blankly at the com with a brain block
till im running late for class.
We can spend the whole night making faces,
kiss till the morning light comes.
Everytime our eyes meet i get this feeling inside me,
its almost more than i can take.
BRAIN BLOCK

who what where why when

20/4/08

2008-04-20T17:51:00.003+08:00

Its been so long

Time has gone so far since we met,
or even spoke to each other.
But all we did ytd was hi and bye.
Time has devoured all we USED TO share
its far its distant, what is it?
Words i cant verbalise, stuck in my mind.
Heahweusedtobesuchgoodfriends

If all good things come to an end,
i'd rather you be the bad thing.
I'm afraid,jealous filled with lust and anger
in between us there is unspoken physics.
Butterflies in my stomach

3/04/08

2008-04-03T20:53:00.002+08:00

Confession of a broken heart

Though we gotta say goodbye for the summer
Baby i promise you this,
I'll send you my love everyday in a letter sealed with a kiss.
I wonder if you can feel my love from our distance
Your shiny mesmerizing eyes are the stars in my night
Are you looking for love or just no obligations passion?
I remember the very first time i looked into your eyes,
i was overwelmed by the passion being attracted to you.
What can i do, to make you mine.
Fallen so hard, so fast this time
What did i say, what did you do.
How did i fall in love with you?
I dont wanna be alone tonight.
Love is about for the first time

Are we in love or just the passion?
perhaps it's just your name

30/3/08

2008-03-30T03:06:00.004+08:00

It died

Camps after camps ever since exams over.
Just back from hougang pri over at ubin,
i swear i almost died there!!!
Sandfly bites all over my legs!!!
But but but
i do love my kids
Im your sexy mama man :)

Wandering on the streets alone

A Lost Friend

Times when you'd call and whine
We USED TO BE so close,
now we're worlds apart
You no longer call
I hope your health is getting better,
cause i still worry for you.
I look at our pictures and think,
about the days we went through and things we shared
One day,she decided to leave me alone.
Heah

10/3/08

2008-03-10T23:28:00.008+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DARLING

Ytd
Met jenna for haircut then to town for elaine.
Towned with "my girls" and headed for chijmes during evening
Dinner at chijmes for Darling's birthday!!!
We totally enjoyed the jokes and cake smashing time :)
We didnt take pictures and talk much :(
cause too many ppl needed your attention.
After dinner,darling had to go off so everyone went off.
Me + jenna and two others hopped on trishaw outside chijmes.
To boat quay and walked to bugis with jenna.
Homed

Wink wink melts and drives you crazy

Exams finally over tomorrow!!!
Yay and i can start chionging with Jenna!!!!
But the new co-ordinator sucks i heard :(
Porche loves the surprise and for the first time,she felt shy!
Its abso-fucking-lutely sweeeet :)
Surprise lovely!!!!

I beg your pardon?
I LOVE MY DARLING SARAH

8/3/08

2008-03-08T12:40:00.002+08:00

Back to square one

im versatile :)

Cause when the lights are out,we party like mad

5/3/08

2008-03-05T00:50:00.000+08:00

Teardrops falling as i remember

The first thing i did on 5th March 2008, i cried real terribly.
The reason why?
Cause i realised how insignificant i am to you.
All the time i tried to work it out,
i see you on the other line not giving a damn.
All the more i think about it,the tears roll and roll.
So tell me why should i be crying over you?
We're in love but the truth is,are we really in love?
Love is patient,love is kind.
I'm running out of patience when i seek you in vain.
The day is today,the date is this,the time is now.
I stare at something resembling you so real and whisper,
its our day dear i hope u're happy cause tears are rolling down my cheeks.
I'll learn to live without all you've given,
and live without all that you have not given.
Is this the way we're gonna celebrate our love?

Tonight,i celebrate my love for you

3/3/08

2008-03-03T14:04:00.002+08:00

Time in a blink of an eye

Linger lingers lingering
I'm infected with some kind of virus and its deadly.
The angel and devil keeps popping out
The devil says "She's so pretty and all you can think of, go ahead"
The angel says"NO you can't!She prolly does tht to everyone, DONT"
All day long this angel runs around in my head
You held my hands,you held me tight.
Actually i'm quite upset right now, exams coming!
So anyway,
I'm going to the doc and get this virus removed soon.
If you cant give me what i'm asking for,
then i'll have to seek it somewhere else.
We all need sufficient attention to love and live

Procrastination's running tracks in my head

2/3/08

2008-03-02T15:44:00.002+08:00

Lets Party

I met an angel last night and she still lingers in my head.
i wish i can dream about her again

When the night gets too wild,
i deserve one more kiss.

17/2/08

2008-02-17T02:19:00.004+08:00

It became "we used to"

We used to do this, we used to do that.
We used to laugh and play together,
we used to fill changi village with our laughters.
We used to walk from here to there the whole night.
We used to play mahjong like addicted gamblers.
We used to. We used to. We used to.
Acquaintance we have plenty, real friends few.
Esp the ones who stood by you when your world tumbles.
Thank you is never enough,
to express how thankful i am for times you've been there.
We hold this so closely thats why we get disappointed.
We understand our tempers and mind the damages of our words,
therefore we silence it and chuck it back.
But it doesnt work this way, my dear friends.
We need to talk, we need more understanding of us.
We need to talk before its too late to apologise.
Together we stand so tall and strong,
alone i stand so helpless waiting to be devoured.

We used to be so Sinful

~~we used to be~~
Time and tide waits for no man

14/02/08

2008-02-14T00:12:00.003+08:00

Happy Valentine's Day

She's my valentine :)
Girl, your love is the best gift i could ever ask for.
Look at me and tell me that you love me,
i'll show you what your love does to me.

There's nothing to ask for,cause i've got you

8/2/08

2008-02-08T16:29:00.000+08:00

Happy Chinese New Year

First day of CNY is hectic!
Woke up early morning to get ready to go visiting.
Grandma house!
Everyone made me play mahjong with granny,
and i almost fell aslp cause you know why.
Sssssssssssllllllllllooooooooowwwwwww
but but but
she won like mad okay.
Then i decided to play blackjack instead.
Blackjack loves me more,i concluded.
I won $12 and i stopped there!
Cause me and mum needed to rush off to aunty's house.
So we rushed rushed rushed off with my lil niece.
Over at aunty's place,we played mahjong again!!!
aft sitting there for hours,i didnt win or really lose.
I only lost like $2?
totally like wasted my time sitting there trying to win some bucks.
Then my brother called and ask us to rush to my sis place,
cause cause cause they are short of players!
So we rushed rushed rushed again.
To sis house and mahjong AGAIN.
This time harvest is better,i won $15.50
How pathetic can!
I was like a full time gambler ytd okay.
Rushing here and there to play mahjong,
but i didnt really win or lose. OMG
It's like worse den those "Ge tai" singers lah.
Homed at 3plus and i was like so damn tired
Sis,bro and gambling gang gonna come later on,
so you know what that means right?
MAHJONG AGAIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Let me show pictures of this cute baby!
She's somehow related to me but i dunno how.

Im gonna catch the rat, tricia the cat.

Come on come on,lets MJ

Dont disturb la, HU LE!!!

**Warning to Jenna Goh**
I know your dirty lil secret, and im not telling you!
So you better "an fen" abit hor. If not you die!!
You are such a troublemaker,better stop it ah!!!
Cherish what you have infront of you when u have it all!!!!

Back from Mars in few hours

6/2/08

2008-02-06T19:09:00.000+08:00

So near yet so far

Distance gonna make us grow.
Everytime i close my eyes,
i think about how we lie and stare at each other,
then breaking into laughter.
Imissyoumygirl

She makes my heart skip beats

6/02/08

2008-02-06T02:21:00.000+08:00

Happy Happy Happy

Initially i wanted to save this post for later today.
But something happy happened!!!
so i'm here blogging about it. :)
Actually i wasn't feeling in the best of mood,
cause of the 3days 2nights m'sia trip.
I can't imagine how boring CNY would be,
all the time i'd be missing you so badly.
Thanks to Miss Scaredy Cool Cat, i left so soon
But to find out that i could have stayed on for hours.
"if Minru's boyfriend can stayover, so can my GIRLFRIEND"
After the long talk,she decided to fall asleep on me. :(
So i tried my luck and sms-ed.
Suddenly the phone rang and i hear the sleepy voice.
Shoo shoo to bed with much reluctance.
The phone rang again as i prepared for my bath.
There appeared her name and it was an sms.
What is there to be so happy about, you might be thinking.
Apparently for 1 whole damn week i was unable to receive any sms.
Particularly the ones from Dinosaur, so i was like damn pissed off.
I jumped with joy when i saw the message that showed her name!!
HAPPY KID :)

You make me jump all around with joy

5/2/08

2008-02-05T11:40:00.000+08:00

For you, I will

Friends,she has a couple of crazy ones.
Those who are so jealous inside,
yet fake a smile and talk to you like nothing went wrong
You should be wary.
It's not that they couldn't express it out,
they CHOSE to hide it away.
I hear them talk about you,how angry or pissed they were,
I wish i could stand up and tell them off.
The whole time the anger in me rose as they spoke,
about complaints and their feelings.
Sandwiched sandwiched sandwiched
This feeling is never enjoyed.
But for your sake,i'll press on and be strong.
I'm gonna make this a win-win situation,
cause if you forsake them,things are gonna be worse.
By then it wouldn't be just the couple of them,
cause they've got themselves a skillful mouth.
Seeing you right infront of me yet we gotta keep our distance,
hear them bitch yet i can't take your hands and walk away.
I was so exasperated by the senseless jealousy.
But all the irritations went away,
when you hold my hand tight and look at me under the dim light.
I was made a Happy Kid again :)

When she holds my hand

03/02/08

2008-02-03T10:39:00.000+08:00

02 February 2008

She melts me like butter placed under the sun

Met Jenna to Hort Park for some sch's Chinese Orchestra.
I was captivated by the look someone had while performing.
B-e-a-u-t-i-f-u-l
Made our way back to sch then to PP for that few minutes,
then cabbed to Suntec where we caught a movie.
Fountain fountain fountain :)
Met up with the other 2 Sins @ tamp to chill,
and we ended up going to changi village for supper.
Wanted to check into hotel cos Furby was dead beat.
However hotels in Singapore is such a rip off.
Thus we decided to go Angry girl's house for stayover,
aft she had her fill of staring at the trans over at changi.
We're much more funny than Jacky Wu okay!!!
Butterfly Park huh.
Jenna almost go crazy cause of Adel and her butterflies.
"its a beetle,no its a butterfly.Cause it lives in butterfly park"
OMG all of us alm fell rolling on the floor with laughter.
and that is just one small part of ytd's FUN
We never fail to amuse ourselves and fill outings with LAUGHS
the whole dead changi was full of our deafing laughters last night.
I simply love them to bits :)
i'd like to thank the 3SINS for being there for me these times.
Oh and i forgot to mention!!
I saw my DEAREST SHUTING STAR LEGS today!!!
so happy to see her that i behaved like her campers.
We gotta meet up soon Eting,fun is waiting for us!
** CREDITS TO JENNA GOH**
for lending me her song thou she complained the whole night
for helping me out at the fountain fountain fountain
You better be TRUE to Miss Cool okay!!
if not i will come after you with wooden blocks.
and and and
We're HAPPY KID until further notice. :)

1. Because i like you very much
2. Because everything in you makes me true
3. Because you make me want to love again
4. Because your eyes and smile melts me entirely
I realised how crazy i'm feeling for you,its amazing.
You're what keeps me wishing on a wishing star,
and you're the the song i keep singing in the car.
In the silence,your heartbeat is music to me.
We had the most special moment that's lasting forever.
Cause under the moonlight your eyes tells it all
And through the words speaks my love for you.

I was smiling through the whole night
~~Lee~~
GOH

01/02/08

2008-02-01T23:44:00.000+08:00

Beautiful process

The wait was so long,i began to chafe at the bit.
From patiently to annoyed i stared at the time pass.
The phone sat in my pocket silently made it worse,
i was ranting and screaming inside like a lunatic.
Because of You
I thought the rain would cool me off
Yet i feel that every raindrop falling on me,
is dissolving me away bit by bit.
I was restored when you looked me in the eye.
That pair of mesmerizing sparkling eyes,
made me felt like i was under some spell.
You filled my mind like the fragrance of flowers fill the room.
When you first took the initiative to hold my hand,
When you first took the initiative to kiss me,
Baby,let me tell you how i felt that very moment.
I was overjoyed,exultant,jubilant and out of the universe.
You made me a happy lil kid :)

I melt at the sight of my beautiful girl

31.01.08

2008-01-31T14:31:00.000+08:00

Procrastination running circles in my head

I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by my childish fears.
If you could see how much i feel
and understand my point of view of Love.
Look into my heart and you'll see my fears.
Aghast by the fact how ever changing Love is.
~~Forever~~
Questions running around in my mind
there's too many questions with no answers
We need to show more of our feelings

Its so beautiful,it makes you wanna cry

30/01/08

2008-01-30T14:10:00.000+08:00

Disappointment

Why should we be keeping things from one another?
whats the reason for being so complicated,
when we can actually be so simple and true?
Masks we put on so many of it,
to the extent that we dont know who we are anymore.
I thought i knew you,i thought.
But i was proven wrong time and time again.
Seems that you are like any others,
even to me you put on a dozen of masks.
I misplaced my trust in humans

I've tried too hard to love
so burdened now,i don't wanna try anymore.

28/01/08

2008-01-28T00:19:00.000+08:00

Pack up and move on

Many times in life we want to stay,
but we have to force ourselves to learn and move on.
There's too much that time cannot erase
and this pain is just too real.
Did it happen when we first kissed
Cause it's hurting me to let it go
Maybe cause we spent so much time
And i know it's no more
I should have never let you hold me
Maybe why i'm so sad to see us apart
I didn't give to you on purpose
Gotta figure out how you stole my heart.

My mind is gone, i'm spinning around
And deep inside, my tear i'll drown
I'm losing grip, what's happening
I stray from love, this is how i feel.

I'll be on my way but my love stays

26/01/08

2008-01-26T23:59:00.000+08:00

lets PLAY

went to Play with long time no see friends.
Pictures shall do all the talking for me

Dine, Nad, Swan, Jamie, Kenneth, Johnne and his 2 friends,
and that cheryl that came super late.
while dancing 2 very hilarious scene took place.
First we have miss swanny dancing to the music till suddenly.. she was elavated.
It took me awhile to realise that she was being lifted up my a gay almost shorter than her. I
t was so funny..I laughed my guts out. she was practically bouncing in the air..
aiya tell you she enjoys it. HAHA. He kissed her and walked out in the end. LOL.
The 2nd one is so... hawt.
There was like this gay pestering kenneth and asking him where he lives at and all.
It took like awhile to look away and look back to find them making out.
He was so licking and kissing Kenneth's chest can.
-copied from Christine's.

The night was so high and wild,we kinda lost our senses.

26/01/08

2008-01-26T12:33:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday Furby!!!

the first to hit 20 among us :)
hope you enjoyed the dinner and presents.
details will be on furby's blog when she's back from camp!

Dont wish to talk about PRSS cos im so upset abt it.
im still sick sick sick.
supposed to be in the SM camp now,
but i got sent back ytd cos heat stroke?dehydration?
whatever it is,i didnt die.
Confusion is killing me so badly.
no doubts we've drifted miles apart.
sometimes we just gotta force ourselves to learn
i cant get the words out from me
Just hope that you'll be happy.

she's gone too far

17/01/08

2008-01-17T09:35:00.000+08:00

WE REPEL LIKE MAGNETS

I'm feeling guilty that i haven't been contributing to projs.
IM SO SORRY!!!
so i'm trying to make it up by completing proj2 for ETP.
SUPPOSED to have training ytd
but but but
last min coach was on MC so it was cancelled :(
but but but we still went to play ball!!!
Dearest ankle,please recover soon,i want to play ball.
cough,sore throat and fever came to visit me,
so now i'm like half dying.

Seems like i'm done here-

15/01/08

2008-01-15T20:23:00.000+08:00

I've been living in confusion these days

Been rather restless and frustrated these few days,
im so not in the back-to-school mood.
Complaining non stop and disturbing classmates
i bet their ears are having hell of a time.
Basketball training tmr,i hope i can release some stress
i miss camp and dread the coming SM camp :(
My mind hasnt been functioning well
i dont know what i'm doing or want to do.

You take the sanity in me away-

13/01/08

2008-01-13T00:30:00.000+08:00

i have a bad feeling about this.

The mouth says:
i'm going away cause i'm done here.
i gave what i could,as well as what i couldnt.
there's nothing else i could do for you.
I'm tired tht its always someone else.......
but never me.
The heart says:
I still like you very much
and i won't be me if i cld walk away from you.
i hope one day you can tell me,
it's my turn and there's only me.

I can say it out now,
i miss her
she's got someone new :(

11/01/08

2008-01-11T22:28:00.000+08:00

hello world,im finally back from camp.
CHIJ Katong Convent Girls
buddy up with funniest guy around,Ahmad.
i must say i've learnt alot from him these days.
Class 1: Mummy's Angel
My class was the only grp with most problems,
be it internal conflicts or first aid.
Overall they are still a bunch of lovely girls
campfire was superb,thanks to Ahmad and Akasha.
totally enjoyed myself during this camp,
except the late debriefs and not so cooperative weather.
Cried when we all bid goodbye before they board the bus,
its really saddening and see them cry just makes u cry too.
3days2night isnt a long time,isnt very short either.
its enough to bond us together already
But all good things come to an end too.
Hope you girls enjoyed the camp as well,
and may God bless you always.
Hahahahahaha i love this. :)
Someone wrote in the evaluation form;
Swan(super SWEET)
Lols.i didnt know that :D
another thing that i love,
TWINbananas

This time i finally mastered the courage to lead the cohort,
stand infront of the whole cohort and lead isnt easy at all!
My legs were like jelly,heart pounding voice trembling inside.
but i manage to pull it thru and GOOD JOB SWAN!!!
and i took initiative to help Jenna do rahrah session!!
good start good start.Its all gonna come rolling naturally
Buck up on the cheers and songs!!!
maybe one day you'll see me as campfire MC. :)
Live your dreams-

imissedyou

8/01/08

2008-01-07T23:58:00.000+08:00

i'm gonna miss you.
Again i'll stand by the sea,hunger for your touch.
honey,embrace me in your arms like you did,
we're spending the rest of the time kissing.
i'll perk up at the thought of you :)
pls tell me i'll see you asap.

no lovely thing this time :(
isemsila-

06/01/08

2008-01-06T00:33:00.000+08:00

FINALLY BACK TO MY LOVELY BED.
In whole,camp was alright.
activities were carried out quite smoothly,
except the heavy rain in the morning that almost froze us all.
and and and
i couldnt sleep at night!!!
so hot and stuffy i almost died lah. :(
i still love grey blanket the best.
I didnt get any darker!!!
cos the sky was so cloudy when water activities were carried out.
but but but
i'll look forward to the sunny day coming up!
KC camp coming up this Wed
yes people,off to camp AGAIN.
Pictures coming up---

Amelia Koh RuiEn

Xinlin the copy cat

There you go,some of my group girls

These days i've missed you like i nv miss before
the cold wind brush across my face at night,
i yearn for your warming hugs,
and seductive kisses that makes me blush.
I think about how is it like to have you there that very moment
i stand by the sea and shout out loud,
letting the wind carry my misses i shouted to you.
Perhaps it never got to you
the days when you weren't there.

The lovely thing is still there :)
isemsila-

2/1/08

2008-01-02T00:19:00.000+08:00

i miss you,i really do.
need you like the air i breathe.
Alone i stand by the sea looking at the sun rise and set,
i wonder how great it'd be having you here with me.
I just realised something lovely :)

Isemsila-

1/1/08

2008-01-01T03:01:00.000+08:00

First post for year 2008!!!
Happy New Year people.
all of us have different wishes for this new year.
Mine?
a very simple one.
i wish our feelings will not die and love will come to us.
One day,one day we will.
im so sure i'm not lying to myself.

Dont push me away anymore. :(
im gg for camp tonight,pls miss me.

30/12/07

2007-12-30T19:11:00.000+08:00

its breaking to have someone you cant live without,
not able to live without someone else.
But love is such a funny thing.
even when it cuts so so deep,you still wanna go into it.
Because you love,because you like someone.
you wanna be there till the end,
to be there despite the pain or anything else
just to be in love with someone,
To wait for the right time and make things happen.
stable love builds over time.
or maybe not

I nv meant something to you,
or you never liked me to start with.
Does that explains why we cant be in love?
im going through hell thinking abt you with someone else,
bearing all the pain to see your smile.
Times when i breakdown so badly,on the verge of dying,
standing by the road wanting to dash out and die,
which of these times when i almost died did you see?
i told you i cant survive. i really cant
If its not for them,i would have died.
will you only believe that i cant survive upon seeing my dead body?
I wish we see the things each other goes through.
i wish i knew how to do big things for you instead of small lil ones,
so small that we often overlooked them.
Does everything i do mean anything to you?

will you think of me when im gone far away?
i yearn to be embraced in your loving arms

30/12/07

2007-12-30T00:01:00.000+08:00

Emotional breakdown is hard to handle.
i'm going to give you a present.
That is something i hold so close,so important.

Dreams are my reality