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Date:
Saturday, September 22, 2007
Time:
12:21 AM
22/9/07
went to sch at 11AM. just to get scolded for our results. NO MORE EXTRA ACTIVITIES FOR YOU! whatever man im too tired to get whats said into my head Fubs,XW,Adeline came over for mahjong session. i swear XW is sooo fucking funny pls pong-ing things not belonging to her den ask why she did tht. at 8,someone who needs MAGNIFYING GLASS specs came bought food home and ate so the one who needs MAGNIFYING GLASS specs took over XW claiming she doesnt know how to play,but keep winning and i lost lost lost need to go pray pray for luck liao anyway,its the process not the results so winning or losing doesnt matter. =) more mahjong sessions to come! did you realise we dint speak for 8days? i guess thats a NO well,this will carry on. cause i will not be stupid and get censured. show me you care before i show mine. i have learnt my lessons Indeed. Cheer up, Love
Date:
Thursday, September 20, 2007
Time:
11:59 PM
20/9/07
fight on. Expectation leads to Disappointment Disappointment leads to Despair let the evil be revived come on,we all know Smoking Kills You know i kinda try too hard not missing you Love,take some time to think about us
Date:
Monday, September 17, 2007
Time:
11:39 PM
17/9/07
im in deep shit however,not repentful its easy to make me happy but im still so sad ok im talking no sense here my senses have gone bonkers cause i just realised in a blink of an eye, thee have vanished from our side. guess God is too busy for me. forgive me my lord, and that i have sinned terribly. i will learn to live without happiness without care and concern nor love Happy Birthday Love She's not going to talk about us?
Date:
Time:
12:17 AM
17/9/07
i waited all day long but it only rang in my head the devil has devoured me
Date:
Sunday, September 16, 2007
Time:
9:06 PM
16/9/07
TODAY IS SUNDAY the emotions in me made my eyes red with tears i wanna dissolve in the rain evaporate into the air melt in the flames of my own desire look in my eyes,you'll see the death of innocence. picturing us sitting together laughing and crapping, now i see us leaving one by one.
Date:
Time:
4:12 AM
16/9/07
driven to despair i am the next to leave. my lips and mind speak differently well im leaving with my pride until this moment you still care not the grief in me is just too much for me to bear. dont you get the hints or you chose to overlook them wake me up when september ends. Coma
Date:
Saturday, September 15, 2007
Time:
5:23 PM
15/9/07
i wish you knew where to find me,when im gone. or rather the right time to look for me. cause you see,you never seemed to care. so this time,im putting it down take my pride and step away. if u would care just half,i'll be glad. cause i never seem to affect. close your eyes and feel, how things drastically changed to kill. its such wonder being at places we used to laugh so hard, but now sit alone crying myself apart.
Date:
Friday, September 14, 2007
Time:
11:59 PM
14/9/07
yes take your filthy hands off. you had been there during a period of time. i will put aside now what the voices in me say, and shout out to you. "You will always be a part of me" always and forever. the one who walked with me till our legs worn out, just to look for jerseys. the one who treated me old chang kee with your extra $. deep in my heart,i find that i do care. Will you care as much for me as i do for you? remember to come back after your stroll, we are waiting for you. We used to sit chattering non-stop, but now we sit only with just thoughts.
Date:
Thursday, September 13, 2007
Time:
4:29 AM
13/9/07
i have so much to voice out. so much in me that builds up as every min pass. but the time is not ripe. there is a part that goes, thee art no I. assume not what i go through. nights that nv ends are struggles i put up with, together with the massacre you carried out replaying. the vision so clear and real, over and over again till i wake in fright. i may not know the real truth, but from what i see,you have taken sides. and definately not mine for you have forsaken your own friend. bang your head against the wall till it bleeds. see the wound split open,oozing with blood. then sprinkle some salt on it and feel the excruciating pain. at the point you hope someone would kill you, just to end that agony you are in. unfortunately,no one is there to lend a helping hand. so it is just you and yourself. the pain i went through is hundred times more. every night when silence falls, the killing is renacted. what a horrifying nightmare- you can put the blame on me. is this the fault of disappointment or expectations? we need a talk no more.
Date:
Wednesday, September 12, 2007
Time:
11:59 PM
12/9/07
wasnt feeling gd about everything. problems and trouble piling up like tonnes of undone work. well,even training sucks to me now. was it the attendence,or my inability to perform? less than a month left and look at us. like a pile of loose sand. everything around seems disappointing. i dont know what i want. i mean i know what i want but its so... what is a basketballer who suck at basketball? i suck at everything,seriously i do. being a friend,basketball..name it,i suck. did anyone know i love the smell of lemons? anyone bothered if i had nightmares? at this moment i dunno what im typing. insanity is taking control over me. agonizing pain i no longer feel, what is pain when hurt is like eating rice? i mean no nothing to you. Should something happen to you, tell me how should i live on? what is a tripod with only 2 stands? its only you left by my side to protect me. Leave me not,forske not me. "A friend is what the heart needs all the time." should i say smoke is the new love?
Date:
Tuesday, September 11, 2007
Time:
11:47 PM
11/9/07
The problem lies in the difference in your attitude, towards your different commitments. Is it right to say that its unfair? But then again,what is fair in this world? "For not many men, the proverb saith, can love a friend whom fortune prospereth unenvying." "It takes your enemy and your friend, working together, to hurt you to the heart: the one to slander you and the other to get the news to you or keeping it from you" All I want is to be cared for. I didn't know care is so much to ask for. Give sorrow words; the grief that does not speak whispers the o'er-fraught heart and bids it break.
Date:
Monday, September 10, 2007
Time:
1:27 PM
10/09/07
“He that is thy friend indeed, He will help thee in thy need: If thou sorrow, he will weep; If thou wake, he cannot sleep: Thus of every grief in heart He with thee does bear a part. These are certain signs to know Faithful friend from flattering foe.” "Odd how much it hurts when a friend moves away, and leaves behind only silence." "If i had to choose between betraying my country or friend, I hope I should have thy guts to betray my country." "Forsake not an old friend,for a new one is not up to comparison." O friends,forsake me not for i have not forsaken thee. Thy friendship is in a crucial part. Thou art in silence,helping is done not.
Date:
Saturday, September 08, 2007
Time:
10:46 AM
8/9/07
i have tried too hard you can put the blame on me the story goes: Australia,Denmark,France,Hungary,Japan,Switzerland,Yemen these 7 nations was a stronghold. Unfortunately,war started when Switzerland was bombed; when several nations opened up its doors to Chile. Signing treaty and allowing damage to be done. With no rythme nor rhythm,the massacre started behind closed doors. what united nation is it when there's killing of own country with foreigner. The End. O mighty saint above, grant me strength and power to fight this battle. I stand alone,wielding chipped blunt sword. Wish to kill no more of my fellow men,yet reality kills. This battle will stop,only when the intruder is eliminated. In whose hands,I care not. If none,then that life is mine to take. Fight not for the percentage of bond after battle, but for the love and times we once shared. Show me that I've fight in vain not. "Those friends thou hast, and their adoption tried, Grapple them to thy soul with hoops of steel; But do not dull thy palm with entertainment Of each new-hatch'd, unfledg'd comrade."
Date:
Saturday, September 01, 2007
Time:
12:24 PM
1/9/07
will this eventually pass? does time really wash that pain away? but why do i feel worse as time pass? as you grow older,life gets harder. you wanna be simple,but life is too complicated. so many things to learn, life is pulling me down. loads of anger,frustrations,saddness to vent. nowhere to do, so only way is to enjoy that pain chewing on my body. feel the pain chew right into the bones, see the blood flow like juicy tomato juice. even so,i still have to be strong. no choice,i have to for the sake of Yew. i will only die in your hands and u will take my revenge. breaking down,pretending its okay has become a routine. u proved pouring out is useless i'll keep it in me once again. perhaps my expectations of u is too high, and you're not who my mind expected to be. what a sweet 18 im going through you broke the vase with your own hands is this feeling called Disappointment? |
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